The thought of growing up

Being younger was basically the perfect life. Everything was so simple back then. You don’t have to think twice and with no other thoughts in mind than to enjoy life. I always tell myself that I am grateful of what I have and what I have become today. I may have regretted a few things that I did not do back then but still, I'm contented with my life now.

As you grow older, you learn to understand why some people act the way they do. I used to be the naive and arrogant girl. I would be judging people based on their appearance. But as I grow older, I do understand why some people act that way. There are so many causes that made them do such things. No doubt that we can't tell people to not judge at all. Whether they like it or not, it's human's nature to judge.

          Growing up doesn’t mean you have to act like a mature adult. Growing up simply means to find out who you are and what you want to become. I'm slowly finding myself each day. I’ve learned that crying makes us stronger and there’s never too much love to go around. Also, it’s hard to do what you love with the people that you feel uncomfortable with. For me, I just don’t enjoy it as much as I expected it to be. Maybe my expectation was set too high.

          Growing up also means that you finally learn how to let go of certain things. You also learn to know who to let go and who stays in your life. But it’s certainly hard. I think that’s why most people are afraid of growing up. Growing up is a long process that everyone has to go through. I don’t find the needs to have so many friends. It’s good to have contacts for future wise but the more friends you have, the less likely you get to enjoy yourself. Dramas are bound to happen.

Sometimes I feel like I’m so behind. My friends are graduating, starting careers and so on. But then I remember I’m 20 and I’m really not in any rush and that I still have a lot of living to do before I settle down.  Ok the thought of me growing up is literally putting me into a depression like I can’t deal. I shall just stop for now. Semester break is almost going to over. In fact, it’s gonna end tomorrow. Scary how time pass by so fast, huh?