Don't let me down

You know what's wrong with me? Well, I'll tell you. I cared too much about you. I thought I could stop but, I just couldn't. I keep telling myself to let it go everyday but I just couldn't. You know why? That's because I have a lot of things I wanna do with you. I've made plans for us and I've imagined how our future is gonna be. Just the two of us. Right now I feel like a pathetic fool. You're the reason for it and I hate it. I hate it because you were the one who made me smile and now, you're the reason why I'm sad. I just hope you will know how I feel. If you really did, you wouldn't treat me this way. I still remember you were the one who gave me hope on our progress when I wanted to let it go. Just like that, I've fallen into your trap. I should have known the real truth about you earlier. You just wake up the next day and stop talking to me like nothing had ever happened. Sadly to say, I've tried talking to you and you did not respond. I understand. You're too busy with your life. Bye.

RIGHT NOW,

I just want to meet someone I can open up to without having to think twice about it. Someone that is capable of knocking down all the walls I put up since blocking people out is starting to become a natural habit of mine. And someone that appreciates me while they still have me. Yeah, it would be nice to meet someone like that for a change.

I've tried talking to you but there's no respond. I understand that. You are too busy with your life. Bye.

Heart to heart

You know what. I really think that when the right time comes, I would meet that significant someone. I've been fooling myself with my feeling or perhaps, my feeling was fooling me. Either way, I know that someone is out there somewhere, somewhat, somehow. All I have to do now is to enjoy what I am doing and with what I have.

You can't predict the future so just enjoy life with everything you have. And like the saying,

Live life to the fullest :)

For the very first time of my life, I have thought to myself saying that time really is not enough. Maybe that's cause I couldn't really manage myself well recently. Also, I've told myself to do a 'To-Do List' so that I wouldn't miss out a thing that I should be doing. College life really made me a different person in my own perspective, that is.

I'm no longer the usual me that usually text. Last time, I used to text 24/7 and waste tons of credits on messaging. But now, I'm no longer texting 24/7 but texting for serious matter.

Recently, I had my test. Quiz 1 to be exact. Honestly, I didn't study much. I'm just hoping for a pass. That's all I can afford. A passing mark. Well, for Math Quiz, I am confident that I would be able to get a good mark cause the questions weren't that hard as I expected. Whereas for Intermediate English, I think I would prolly fail. Like seriously! I finished my test a lil earlier and did not check cause I wouldn't wanna confuse myself. So, screw it! HEHEHE! :D

And for Computing Principles, I think I'm gonna fail. Like SOLEMNLY :(

Make it easy please

When anything is blocking my head or there’s worry in my life, I just go sit on Mars or something and look back here at Earth. All you can see is this tiny speck. You don’t see the fear. You don’t see the pain. You don’t see thought. It’s just one solid speck. Then nothing really matters. It just doesn’t.

Christina Perri - Arms (Official Lyric Video)

If and only if.

You're the butter to my jelly.

i have always dealt with my issues on my own. this is also why while i am a very outgoing person, i am also very private. i keep my problems to myself and it’s so uncomfortable for me to ask for advice because i’m so used to getting back up on my feet by myself.

Can you smile

I know you don't think of me.

And you certainly would never picture us together. However, I hope I cross your mind once in a while just so that I don't feel so pathetic for thinking of you all the time. I remember that time when I knew you, you knew me. I think about those desperate times.

When I wanted to be like you, hang out with you but it’s merely a memory. I think of those times when you were overflowing to me and I was thankful. I know that it’s the end. I know that it’s all just foolishnes. Now I know that it’s not true. I am just disappointed in myself for not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride.

Screw it. You know, I realise that I am afraid to commit myself in a relationship. But I'm willing to give in.

If I could have one wish strictly based on myself, I would wish to be happy with who I am for once.