You never knew, right?

RESTLESS, WORTHLESS, USELESS, LONELY AND EVERYTHING YOU COULD THINK OF WHEN SOMEONE'S HAVING A BAD DAY.

Yes, I'm feeling all that. Mix feeling. Recently, I've been reflecting back on what I've did before and what brought me here today. I realised that most of the stuff I did, did not satisfy me. The past thing that I did was to just showcase myself as a strong and tough person.

Truthfully, I'm not as strong and tough you think of.

Inside of me, I'm a messed up person. Weak. Lonely.

I need a psychiatric! I am totally cool living with this constant pain.

I know how it's like to endure all the pain but there's a limit, you know. And I know my limit. So for now, I'll just have to endure just a lil bit more and I'm through with it. End of story.

Some people just wouldn't understand how other people feel. They should be considerate, ya know.

One last thing, LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

“You know what? Tragedies happen. What are you going to do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are, & that pain you feel, its life. The confusion & fear, that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for.”

An Open Relationship

Wanting to have the type of relationship with such high comfortability, that we can talk and embrace our arguments. Instead of trying to shout over each other, can we just admit our mistakes, lay down our wrongs, and go back to focusing on whats more important. Us; To end every fight and argument with apologizing sorries while our arms are around each other in warmth. To set aside our enraging emotions and continue with our blissful love essence.

Sometimes I feel incredibly disconnected, really uncomfortable in my own skin. Kind of like I don't fit in this world. Like I was born at the wrong timing, and I don't belong.

: )

6/8/2011 :)

I think it was the right choice to let go. If I did not let go, I wouldn't have met another person that makes me indescribably happy.