Love is the beauty of the soul

Greeting 2012 a warm welcome :)

2011-12-31T16:32:00.003+08:00

I've been pretty lifeless these few days :)

Dance like there's no tomorrow

2011-12-31T16:22:00.004+08:00

2011 was an amazing journey for me. I've never regreted joining HUC Street Dance. If I hadn't join, I wouldn't have met those amazing and awesome people.
I've learnt so much from this club. Not just about dancing but other things like respect, friendship, teamwork and many more.
It has been one of the best thing that has happened to me this year, truthfully!
By joining this club, I've actually fulfilled one of my 2011 resolution which was to form a crew and perform as many dance performances as I can.
But for now, my 2012 resolution is to prioritise my study first, then only comes dancing.

Fondest memories of December 2011

2011-12-26T23:47:00.007+08:00

Life can be magnificent and overwhelming -that is the whole tragedy. Without beauty, love, or danger it would almost be easy to live.

Just as I was showering just now, I thought to myself. December of 2011 has been a great month for me although it's coming to an end. I think I'm ending 2011 with great memories and I'm going to cherish it a lot. To simplify everything I am about to say is that I got to spend my December with people I love, I cherish and mean a lot to me. Besides that, I got to do stuff that I love most, Dancing/Baking/Family Bonding time :)
Before December started, I got to see my best friends and had a girl talk. Sue Jen who is now working in SIA. I haven seen her for months! Pamela Choi who has been a true good and best friend ever. The both mean so much to me! (Picture below was taking during October)

And beginning of December, I had my finals for my 2nd sem. It was rather ok, I think but I just hope that I can at least get a pass for my results. Honestly, it ended with my worst subject. Accounts! Dang! What to do? It's over now. I'm really praying to get pass for all my subjects.

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And now, the days after my finals :)

It started of with an outing with my college friends. Had a really great time with them despite of how much we ate and how many malls we've went in just 4 hours.
I also had a dance performance after my finals which was pretty awesome. The dance theme was Retro but the event itself wasn't Retro at all. It was for a grand opening of a mechanic shop somewhere in The Strand, Damansara.

All the awesome dancers from HUC Street Dance Club :)

Besides that, I even did a dance performance for Twisties and the pay was quite good. It was a pretty random performance actually. My friend called me up one night before the performance to ask me if I can perform. Well, I agreed and I had a blast with the dancers. It was worth my time. Oh yeah, I even wore a fake wig and it's RED! A RED WIG! It's gonna be my first and last time wearing a wig. It's so uncomfortable.

The Twisties dancers :)

Why I said December was great? That's cause besides doing what I love which is dancing, I got to spend my time with my best friends from high school. FAMESY :)
It's great catching up with old friends. Add ons to our inside-jokes. They never fail to make me happy and laugh like mad. I love them to itsie bitsie tiny bits :D

Well, I actually spend most of my time dancing for the month of December. A lot of practice sessions. But it's all worth it. I did another dance performance for my college's Communication Degree Department's Prom Night. And I think I had fun performing because it was a solo performance :) No one knows my mistakes. Teehee!

Not only that, I had another performance which was for Samsung Roadshow. It was for a product launch. Samsung Galaxy Y(oung). It was tiring but definitely worth my time and experience. We did a random collaboration with a beat boxer, Riyal. It was epic PHAIL but great experience.

We are known as HUC Dance Crew. It sounds awesome.

Oh yeah, one more last dance performance I did for this year was for a Christmas celebration for HELP's Staffs. It was a latin dance routine. I swear, I am no good in latin at all. 2 days of practice and *TADA* performance. Honestly speaking, it was a great experience.

What's more? I had a great Nomnomnom session with my college best friends, Kimberly and Kuna :)
Snowflake - Daorae BBQ - Hot Chocolate. They are another bunch of girls that never fail to make me happy.
Kimberly and I have loads of inside-jokes. And we've gotten so much closer in this 2nd sem. It's amazing how we've gotten really close. I'm so blessed to have this two girls in my life!

What's the other best thing about December? FAMILY BOND! I'm so bless to have family members like them. I have an amazing maid. Also, I have the best dogs ever!
I get to spend time with my friends, family and doing what I love for this whole month. This has come to make me realise I'm really fortunate. I know I have my flaws and I complain a lot. I've been rebellious and all but, I'm seriously lucky to have everything in place!

2011 has been a crazy yet adventurous year. Loads of ups and downs but tons of memories to be cherish and to be remembered. I've learnt a lot through things that I've gone through and from people around me. I've met amazing and inspiring people and I've realised who I should let go and who I should keep and hold on to.

When it all comes to an end

2011-12-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realise who the real ones are. It's the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up. It's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like you just wasted time. It's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realise that that is okay.

Honesty

2011-12-26T00:14:00.004+08:00

I have this feeling in me that is really odd. I have a feeling that no one in my life, now or later, will ever give me a surprise and give me a phenomenal experience. I'm thankful of what I have now but I just have that feeling that no one appreciate me. Appreciate what I've done for them and they wouldn't cherish it much. This is me, speaking honestly. There are so many videos on youtube or even in the net of people being surprised. It's really great to see how people are so thoughful. But to me, I think I will never have that kind of chance. The feeling of being speechless of what people can do for me.

Christmas Eve

2011-12-25T02:10:00.002+08:00

Somewhat I think I have the best Christmas Eve so far. First and foremost, you must know that I did not celebrate Christmas Eve outside or some other common ways of celebration. I woke up to a sweet text from someone :) And that has already brighten up my day. What's more? I woke up with RM50 beside me from my mom :)
I felt very contented although I didn't celebrate it with my friends or go out for a dinner with my family.
Well, that's because I finally am able to bake due to the freetime I have. I spent half the day baking alone but I felt really happy with it that's because I know I am baking it for my family and friends. All in all, baking makes me a happy person. Enough said :D
While I was baking, I had a short bonding session with my maid and I felt so lucky to have a maid like her. She's really awesome. She knows a lot of stuff that I don't know and able to carry out a lot of tasks at one. She truly is amazing. That's why she's known as the Super Woman in my family :)
I also spent my Christmas Eve with my parents watching a movie, Flying Swords of Dragon Gate at Leisure Mall.
It may sound simple and boring but honestly, I am happy with how I spent my day. A fruitful day for me :)
Cause to me, spending some quality time with family means a lot.
Anyway, I would like to wish Merry Christmas to all my beloved ones! Have a holly jolly Christmas and have a wonderful time with your beloved ones :D

Friends

2011-12-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

Let’s face it, we’ve changed, we’ve all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we’ve all gone our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships were diminished, and new loves started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends; we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. Some of us are finding love while some of us are trying to let go. Even though we’ve changed we all know that even though we’re all finding our own place in the world that when we find love, let go of a love, or when the tears fall, or a smile spreads across our face, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we are all not friends forever.

Lady Gaga!

2011-12-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

Tonight I want you to free yourself, I want you to let go of anyone or anything that’s ever made you feel like you don’t belong, or don’t fit in, I want you to regret any person that’s ever made you feel like your not good enough or thin enough, or pretty enough, or can’t sing well enough, or write well enough, or that your never be great in your life, you just remember, your a god damn superstar and you were born this way.

Knock Knock

2011-12-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Share what is on your mind. Don’t think, just do.

2011-12-08T01:28:00.006+08:00

It’s December once again. Christmas lights glow and tree’s are lit. The month where I tend to feel the happiest and saddest. It’s also the month where I make a lot of empty promises, mostly to myself. December is here and we need to know what should always stay in mind. December of 2011. I feel like this year went by so fast with so many things; good and bad.

I am actually enjoying the beginning of this month. I think it’s just that time of year when the excitement of the season starts to wear off and time starts to slow down. Self-reflection kicks in. It’s important that I make sure it doesn’t turn into self-pity. I have to remind myself to constantly strive for proactivity and learning how to enjoy what’s in front of me, instead of longing for things I don’t have, or regretting what I already have done.

Lately, I’ve been over thinking a lot at night. About what I’m going to with my life, where I want to be and how I’m supposed to get there. I’m filled with all sorts of mixed emotions when it comes to thinking of the future. I'm pretty worried about how my future is going to be when there's no financial support. I know freedom must be sacrificed as it is part of growing up. But at this moment, I don't have the awareness of it yet. I mean I don't completely feel it yet. I really need to get to feel and experience the tired-ness and wariness of working life. I thought I would learn a lot from college about life/work but NO. It hasn't gotten into me yet.
I've seen and met a lot of successful people. I mean by their academic results. They really do strive and work hard for it. I always want to be like them but it never works. So I guess now I have one goal for my new year resolution.

I've just told myself today that I must read at least 2 novels this month. IT'S A MUST!

The fortune might be true. I MUST be aware of guys surrounding me especially in my relationship. Justsoyouknow :)

CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR IS GONNA BE A WHOLE LOT BETTER! I just have a feeling for this :D
But I'll keep my expection low. Just so I won't get disappointed.

Hoping that you walk through that door.

2011-12-05T22:00:00.001+08:00

We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems - the ones that make you truly who you are - that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person, someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.” I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way. Let our scars fall in love.

That sparks in you

2011-12-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

That's the type of person I am.

I would do so much for someone else’s happiness. I don’t like showing people my weak side, especially when I cry. I hate bringing people down just because I feel upset or hurt. I’m willing to suppress it all, just to see you smiling. I’m strong enough to do that. Just to see you happy, and not worry about anything, I’d take all the burden. I don’t really care about my feelings. As long as I see you happy, It’s more than enough for me.

Put your arms around me

2011-12-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

THIS IS MY STORY, MY REALITY, MY LIFE.

Her eyes don't light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn't get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn't race when you smile at her. You don't get to her like you used too. You're just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So, don't be surprised next time you make your way past her, she doesn't even glance your way. Don't bother trying to talk to her, you won't get a response. She's over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you every chance you could ask for. And you fucked up every time. Now she walks around with nothing but a smile on her face, and she laughs harder than ever before. Looks like you lost her bro.

Someday I really hope that I will have someone who will love me, who will make me stop crying with just one hug, and someone who will be like a kid to play with me. It’s the best feeling after a fight. After having a silly love fight, one cries and one apologizes. For a few seconds, both of you are ok again. You’re happy again. You can tease each other like kids again. Love and relationship is just like that. You face problems, you might end up breaking each other’s hearts, but what’s important is that you make efforts to make it last and you don’t allow time and fate to break up what you have cherished and took care of for a long time.

I want to be that girl:

You can’t stay mad at whenever we have a fight, the one you come to whenever you’re down, the first person you think of every morning and night, the one you wish to do couple things with, the one you’re willing to do anything for, the one you phone for hours with, the one to get introduced to your friends, the one you act like best-friends and lovers.

I hope someday someone can tell me " I can see you're sad. Even when you smile. Even when you laugh." How can I love when I'm afraid to fall. Nobody can avoid falling in love. They might want to deny it, but friendship is probably the most common form of love. Somehow, I'm too scared to be alone and too scared to open up.

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE?! Weight doesn't bother me. I eat what I want. But I do want to loose weight :P
I don't know why people live their lives as if having a boyfriend/girlfriend is the only thing that's important.
Sometimes I find myself investing way too much in friendships and relationships and typically get nothing in return.

THE END :)

Thank you :)

2011-11-28T01:58:00.004+08:00

I'm so glad you came into my life. Understanding yet so protective over me.

I never forgot you.

2011-10-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

You're not easy to forget

You were someone special to me. You were someone I always cared about. You were someone I would talk to when I had issues. But then, you just left me. You left without telling me why. You left without give me a reason. You left without saying goodbye. Which makes it harder to forget you. Everyday I still miss you, even though you don’t miss me. I just hope that you would start to talk to me again. You’re not easy to forget.

Why why why?

2011-10-23T19:59:00.002+08:00

You wanna know why girls take every little detail seriously?

Because we’re scared that maybe, we’re not good enough. We see other girls & think maybe, someone else will take our place. We look through every flaw that we can find. We get insecure. We’re afraid of getting hurt repeatedly. We have trust issues. I don’t know, that’s just how we are. We’re fragile. We’re not something that you should go around playing with & throw away when you’re done. We have feelings too, you know?

You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and 5 minutes later their as dull as a brick. Then there are other people and you meet them and you think ‘not bad they’re ok’ and then you get to know them and their face sort of becomes them, like their personalities written all over it and they just turn into something so beautiful.

—

Amy Pond

Dear Future

2011-10-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

Dearest future husband, whoever you may be.
I can’t wait for the time where we get to share our lives together. When I close my eyes at night, you’re there and when I open them up again the next morning, you’re there too.
I wonder when I’ll be meeting you, or have already met. Cause a very warm hug from you would be very nice at the mo, and the advices we’d share with one another. To inspire. To help each other with our walk in Christ.

I can’t wait to see you.

Love from,
me; your future wife.

Why why why?

2011-09-24T00:01:00.001+08:00

I just don't know.

I don’t understand how the human mind works. It’s like some people are SO incredibly kind and sweet hearted, but some are just so hollow and rude, for no reason what so ever. It’s like people will just pick you apart, find what makes you insecure and use it against you, why, why would someone do that? I don’t know and I don’t think I will ever know. People just really really suck.

Disney

2011-09-23T00:46:00.001+08:00

I remember Meg’s story very clearly. She was in love with a man before Hercules. When he died, she sold her soul to Hades just to bring the man back to life. Once he was alive again, he left Meg for another woman, even though she gave up her soul for him. Of course this would scar Meg, which was why she couldn’t trust men, especially with her heart. Disney used to be so deep and meaningful, what happened?

I'm happy

2011-09-01T01:56:00.003+08:00

Recently I've been enjoying myself way too much. I've been very satisfied with what I've done for my holiday. I'm happy, at least I think I am :)
Well, besides dancing, being with my friends simply makes me happy. Just by hearing their laughters automatically put a smile on my face. You know those kind of feeling when you think that laughter is contagious. Yeah, that's how I feel whenever I'm with them.
I can really tell you that once you're friend with someone, the friendship never really die if you don't constantly talk to them. But if you don't put in effort to hold on to that friendship, then you might just want to bid farewell. It's all about commitment.

I have friends whom I can really rely on and go to for advice or anything else. I'm grateful that I've a lot of friends :D
And I saw this quote on Tumblr. I just want to share it :D

“I want a soul mate who can sit me down, shut me up, tell me ten things I don’t already know, and make me laugh. I don’t care what you look like, just turn me on. And if you can do that, I will follow you on bloody stumps through the snow. I will nibble your mukluks with my own teeth. I will do your windows. I will care about your feelings. Just have something in there.”

—	Henry Rollins

I like you

2011-09-01T01:55:00.001+08:00

To admit, "I like you."

I think it’s getting really hard for me to tell the person I’m having feelings for that I like them. It’s not necessarily really hard but the best I can do is compliment them. For me, I’d rather make it obvious without saying so instead of actually admitting to the person I like them. I just don’t want to get rejected like the past times I’ve tried.

River flows in you

2011-08-28T01:47:00.001+08:00

That was the worst thing about having a relationship with someone, even a pretend relationship. You opened up, let someone in, and when it was over, they had all the ammunition they needed to completely destroy you.

Melody of Life.

2011-08-26T02:21:00.000+08:00

What a wonderful melody. It’s those little things that make you realize that the things you thought mattered, really don’t. Little things like hearing your footsteps hit the concrete, it’s like finding the perfect beat, and every action you take is just another complimentary lyric. It’s something unforgettable, it’s the verse. It’s something that keeps coming back to you, in its very own magical repetitive way; it’s the chorus. It’s something out of the ordinary, unexpected, maybe the climax, and the changing point in your life; it’s the bridge. But it’s those footsteps that first catch your attention. You write your life by those footsteps, and each step you take falls perfectly into the context. It’s only because it’s your song, your life, and at the end of the day, only you can do something about it. You can go back, edit the lines that aren’t as significant anymore, or add memories that flow with the ones in the past. You can leave it as is, let the beat ride, and just let go. Let go and sing at the top of your lungs!

As what we all know

2011-08-26T02:18:00.001+08:00

Do you know what girls really want? They want real conversations and real love. We want cute dates; nothing expensive. Truth is, we just wanna be with you, to be able to say something stupid and not worry. Really, we just want a guy to love us for nothing but being us. Plain and simple.

Being in a relationship should feel like a job.

You’re supposed to be happy, and stress free in it. I’m not saying a relationship is bad because there are fights here and there, that actually helps build your relationship stronger. But if you feel like you HAVE to do this and that, and you feel like you’re only satisfying them, and you’re unhappy, then let it go. You’re supposed to be happy in a relationship, not dreading it.

How to love

2011-08-24T18:02:00.005+08:00

I've actually had 800 post and this one you're reading, will be my 801th post. Not bad, huh? I've started using blogger since form 3. Which was 3 years ago.

However, I've not been an active blogger recently ever since I finish my National Service. I have also been posting emo stuff and more to what I actually feel, not what I've been doing.

August? August has been treating me well that's cause I'm on my sem break :) I have one whole month off for myself. Uhm, not really a month. More to like 5 weeks :P
So what have I been doing for the whole month?
DANCING! :)
I've been involving into dance this whole month. I have been spending most of my time with dancers and to be exact, Nilai and Help dancers. The flashmobbers. I've been to quite a few colleges for the flashmob performance.

Inti Subang Jaya/ Taylor's Subang Jaya
New Era, Kajang
Tunku Abdul Rahman College
Nilai University College

I've been to this 4 colleges this month. I met so many people while I was there. For example, Mabel, from Sabah. Yan Ting, from NS. And many more others. I even met Fong Ee Lynn at her college :) I met a lot of people through this flashmob performance.

Enough said about meeting people. HEHEHE! I had tons of fun with the dancers. You can never find interesting and fun people if there is no dancers in the world.

On the 20th August, I had a performance at Nilai UC' Prom. And hack, it was a great and fun performance. I totally enjoyed the performance despite of the many mistakes I did.

I bet you're wondering. Nilai? Nilai is all the way in Negeri Sembilan. So yeah, I drove all the way there on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. It didn't take me long to drive there. It was about 20-30 minute drive. So it was fine for me. And gosh, the college there is huge and the environment is so peaceful and so much green! The food there is cheap too! :P
Surprisingly Nilai now is so much advanced compared to the last time I've been there which was ages ago.

Oh yeah, I've also done a broadway sort of performance last month on the 23rd July. The same day as my finals. I find it pretty hard to cope up cause the other dancers are all so good. And we even used the feather like stuff you see in Las Vegas. It's not easy at it seems. The dresses I wore was really pretty. The performance was at KL Hilton.

See what I told you? August was all about dancing. Even July too since there was C3 and the Broadway dance. I think I'm using dancing as an excuse to make me not go work :/ I did help out my dad at his office a few days. So it's not that bad right? I'm thinking whether to take up contemporary dance for next month as something new. Dilemma :/
Street Challenger was AWESOME!

Ciaozzz :)

2011-08-12T15:47:00.002+08:00

I love how the little kids hugged me just now. Even though we have communication problem, I see that they tried to understand me and try to put in effort in the games. Laughter, Smiles, Loves and Hugs are all what we need to communicate eventhough we are different.

Stop and stare!

2011-08-04T00:11:00.008+08:00

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street? Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep? What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud? - Pink

How do you sleep at night while there are so many people out there suffering?
You should be proud of what you are and what you have. Just stop for a moment and realise how wonderful life is.
Just take a glance and you'll eventually find out that your life is way better compared to those unfortunate ones.
Have you ever realised that sometimes, you just gotta stop for awhile and realise how far you have come and what you have achieved? Life is truly great and amazing. But you know, if we didn't have any silly thought, we'd no interesting thoughts at all.
Everyone can be at their best if they just put themselves together and have a lil faith in them, then they'd be great just the way they are.
Whenever there are someone who wants to see you fall, DON'T LET THEM DO SO. You may struggle, but you'd be raising from the ground. And at the end of the day, you'll prove them wrong.
Do look around at those people around you. Those who have been beside you all the way and been supporting you from the beginning till the very end, YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS!
They understands you best and don't take things for granted. Without them, you'd probably live a miserable life. But trust me, one day if they are not beside you, you will start missing them a lot and would wish to turn back time. I have never experienced it yet but I sense that.
There are always people supporting you no matter what, how, where or when. You just gotta believe in yourself.
Just look at the picture below. Even dogs would support another being.

I would like to share with you people about the stories behind these two pictures:

The story behind this picture almost made me cry :( This golden retriever mother is carrying her children in this basket to the market for her own puppies to be sold. Even if they are her children, she obeys her owner’s commands.

A man with no arms has become the vice curator of Chongqing Talents Museum in China, which display some of his own work completed using his feet and mouth. 41-year-old Huang Guofu lost both of his arms when he was four years old after being electrocuted.

So people, what are you all waiting and wanting for? Start appreciating life and appreciate what you have now. If not, you'll always life under misery :)

You know what people? I'm gonna go do a voluntary work for a pet adoption day at IOI Mall this Sunday and I've signed up for a volunteer work at Zoo Negara :)

2011-07-24T00:56:00.003+08:00

Life can be tough sometimes. But I think it just starts with admitting, ‘Okay, the world’s not perfect, how do we live our lives within that and not be miserable? There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind. You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage - pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically - to say ‘no’ to other things. And the way to do that is by having a bigger ‘yes’ burning inside. The enemy of the ‘best’ is often the ‘good.

Life fullstop

2011-07-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking. I mean like; why would they even do that? I’m just me. Nothing extraordinary, or special. I'm currently in this long and confusing process of figuring out who I am and what I want to do in my life.

Short skirts and mini skirts, what's the difference?

2011-07-03T00:42:00.003+08:00

I think I was filling up my time by over thinking about stuff, the stuff evolving around me. I've been loosing control of myself for a few days. That's why I was so down and moody. I tried not showing it to anyone and it works :)
Anyhow, C3 is around the corner. It's next 2 weeks at 1 Utama on the 16th and 17th of July. If you are free or you will be around there, do come support Rebels :)
We're RED this year!
I haven been really into K-Pop nowadays. Especially right after I'm back from NS. But K-Pop will never die inside of me. LOL!
Someone's got her driving license already. I'm so proud of myself actually. HEHEHE! During the test, I thought I would have fail and have to re-do the test again but then, I was surprised by myself. I passed. And now, I feel so much like an adult to be able to drive around with asking someone to drop or pick up from some place.
Till then, readers :)

You never knew, right?

2011-06-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

RESTLESS, WORTHLESS, USELESS, LONELY AND EVERYTHING YOU COULD THINK OF WHEN SOMEONE'S HAVING A BAD DAY.

Yes, I'm feeling all that. Mix feeling. Recently, I've been reflecting back on what I've did before and what brought me here today. I realised that most of the stuff I did, did not satisfy me. The past thing that I did was to just showcase myself as a strong and tough person.

Truthfully, I'm not as strong and tough you think of.

Inside of me, I'm a messed up person. Weak. Lonely.

I need a psychiatric! I am totally cool living with this constant pain.

I know how it's like to endure all the pain but there's a limit, you know. And I know my limit. So for now, I'll just have to endure just a lil bit more and I'm through with it. End of story.

Some people just wouldn't understand how other people feel. They should be considerate, ya know.

One last thing, LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

2011-06-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

“You know what? Tragedies happen. What are you going to do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are, & that pain you feel, its life. The confusion & fear, that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for.”

2011-06-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

An Open Relationship

Wanting to have the type of relationship with such high comfortability, that we can talk and embrace our arguments. Instead of trying to shout over each other, can we just admit our mistakes, lay down our wrongs, and go back to focusing on whats more important. Us; To end every fight and argument with apologizing sorries while our arms are around each other in warmth. To set aside our enraging emotions and continue with our blissful love essence.

2011-06-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel incredibly disconnected, really uncomfortable in my own skin. Kind of like I don't fit in this world. Like I was born at the wrong timing, and I don't belong.

: )

2011-06-08T13:26:00.001+08:00

6/8/2011 :)

I think it was the right choice to let go. If I did not let go, I wouldn't have met another person that makes me indescribably happy.

Don't let me down

2011-05-31T20:44:00.002+08:00

You know what's wrong with me? Well, I'll tell you. I cared too much about you. I thought I could stop but, I just couldn't. I keep telling myself to let it go everyday but I just couldn't. You know why? That's because I have a lot of things I wanna do with you. I've made plans for us and I've imagined how our future is gonna be. Just the two of us. Right now I feel like a pathetic fool. You're the reason for it and I hate it. I hate it because you were the one who made me smile and now, you're the reason why I'm sad. I just hope you will know how I feel. If you really did, you wouldn't treat me this way. I still remember you were the one who gave me hope on our progress when I wanted to let it go. Just like that, I've fallen into your trap. I should have known the real truth about you earlier. You just wake up the next day and stop talking to me like nothing had ever happened. Sadly to say, I've tried talking to you and you did not respond. I understand. You're too busy with your life. Bye.

RIGHT NOW,

I just want to meet someone I can open up to without having to think twice about it. Someone that is capable of knocking down all the walls I put up since blocking people out is starting to become a natural habit of mine. And someone that appreciates me while they still have me. Yeah, it would be nice to meet someone like that for a change.

2011-05-21T21:04:00.001+08:00

I've tried talking to you but there's no respond. I understand that. You are too busy with your life. Bye.

Heart to heart

2011-05-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

You know what. I really think that when the right time comes, I would meet that significant someone. I've been fooling myself with my feeling or perhaps, my feeling was fooling me. Either way, I know that someone is out there somewhere, somewhat, somehow. All I have to do now is to enjoy what I am doing and with what I have.

You can't predict the future so just enjoy life with everything you have. And like the saying,

Live life to the fullest :)

For the very first time of my life, I have thought to myself saying that time really is not enough. Maybe that's cause I couldn't really manage myself well recently. Also, I've told myself to do a 'To-Do List' so that I wouldn't miss out a thing that I should be doing. College life really made me a different person in my own perspective, that is.

I'm no longer the usual me that usually text. Last time, I used to text 24/7 and waste tons of credits on messaging. But now, I'm no longer texting 24/7 but texting for serious matter.

Recently, I had my test. Quiz 1 to be exact. Honestly, I didn't study much. I'm just hoping for a pass. That's all I can afford. A passing mark. Well, for Math Quiz, I am confident that I would be able to get a good mark cause the questions weren't that hard as I expected. Whereas for Intermediate English, I think I would prolly fail. Like seriously! I finished my test a lil earlier and did not check cause I wouldn't wanna confuse myself. So, screw it! HEHEHE! :D

And for Computing Principles, I think I'm gonna fail. Like SOLEMNLY :(

Make it easy please

2011-05-21T15:12:00.000+08:00

When anything is blocking my head or there’s worry in my life, I just go sit on Mars or something and look back here at Earth. All you can see is this tiny speck. You don’t see the fear. You don’t see the pain. You don’t see thought. It’s just one solid speck. Then nothing really matters. It just doesn’t.

Christina Perri - Arms (Official Lyric Video)

2011-05-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

If and only if.

You're the butter to my jelly.

2011-05-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

i have always dealt with my issues on my own. this is also why while i am a very outgoing person, i am also very private. i keep my problems to myself and it’s so uncomfortable for me to ask for advice because i’m so used to getting back up on my feet by myself.

Can you smile

2011-05-15T01:03:00.007+08:00

I know you don't think of me.

And you certainly would never picture us together. However, I hope I cross your mind once in a while just so that I don't feel so pathetic for thinking of you all the time. I remember that time when I knew you, you knew me. I think about those desperate times.

When I wanted to be like you, hang out with you but it’s merely a memory. I think of those times when you were overflowing to me and I was thankful. I know that it’s the end. I know that it’s all just foolishnes. Now I know that it’s not true. I am just disappointed in myself for not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride.

Screw it. You know, I realise that I am afraid to commit myself in a relationship. But I'm willing to give in.

If I could have one wish strictly based on myself, I would wish to be happy with who I am for once.

2011-04-30T21:31:00.003+08:00

when you really want someone to text you because you’re all in ~like with them and then they do and you’re all like

but then in a cruel twist of events, they dont say exactly what you want and you’re like HELLO, i have a script made up in my mind WHY ARE YOU NOT FOLLOWING IT

& I feel as though my life is not even close to having all the passion I want. And I am a passionate person. So passionate. And sometimes, I feel like I am going to waste

My life could not possibly suck more than it does right now. I try not to cry. And to let it go. I don’t want to be this totally depressed person.

Always keep the faith

2011-04-26T16:48:00.004+08:00

I miss them like so freaking much! DBSK was the first boy band that captured my heart. Each of them have their special talents and awesome personality. And once you combine them, it's a PERFECT/FLAWLESS GROUP!

I really really miss them a lot!

2011-04-26T13:36:00.001+08:00

How I’m waiting for you like I usually did, but we’re not even together? Gosh, this habit of mine needs to stop…I can’t keep waiting now. Things are different. I’m just so tempted to text you as well. Just a text of “what you’re doing?” is all…I hate this

2011-04-24T01:02:00.001+08:00

You can the peanut butter to my jelly.
You can be the butterflies i feel in my belly.
You can can be the captain
and i can be your first mate.
You can be the chills that i feel on our first date.

You can be the hero
and i can be your side kick.
You can be the tear
that i cry if we ever split.
You can be the rain from the cloud when its storming'
or u can be the sun when it shines in the morning'.

Don't know if i could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me.
And in time i know that we'll both see
that we're all we need.

Cause your the apple to my pie.
Your the straw to my berry.
Your the smoke to my high.
And your the one i wanna marry.

Cause your the one for me (for me)
and I'm the one for you (for u)
You take the both of us (of us)
And were the Perfect Two.

Were the perfect two.
Were the perfect two.
Baby me and you,
were the Perfect Two.

You can be the prince and i can be your princess.
You can be the sweet tooth i can be the dentist.
You can be the shoes and i can be the laces.
You can be the heart that i spill on the pages.

You can be the vodka and i can be the chaser.
You can be the pencil and i can be the paper.
You can be as cold as the winter weather,
but i don't care as long as were together.

You know that ill never doubt ya'.
And you know that i think about ya'.
And you know i cant live without ya'

I love the way that u smile.
And maybe in just a while
i can see me walk down the aisle.

2011-04-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.

Heart to heart

2011-04-21T20:27:00.003+08:00

College life isn't easy as I thought but it definitely is fun :)

There's a lot of work to do. Especially all the task given. Like MY GAH! You really have to understand deep enough to know what the task actually ask. That's a tough thing to do. It keeps you wondering and spin your head right round, right round. LOL!

I've been very emotional these few days. I have too much thought. And sometimes, I don't know what just went through my mind. It's like I'm experiencing Alzheimer disease. *touch wood*

I'm currently up to doing a presentation for English and guess what my topic is?
SIMPLE PAST TENSE AND PAST CONTINUOUS.

The topic sounds easy but the requirement the teacher ask for is, OMGah!

Gonna take my undang again tomorrow. Hope I'll pass tomorrow and go for the 5 hours talk with Sue Jen on Sunday =P

2011-04-21T15:30:00.001+08:00

I can hide the pain and make others think that I can move on, but I cannever deny the truth that the person who failed and hurt me, is still the same person I wish to love me.

True fact about me

2011-04-20T17:55:00.001+08:00

Have you ever texted someone and they took forever to text back, so you checked what time you sent the text, calculated how long it took for them to reply, and tried to make them wait longer before you send your next response.

2011-04-19T00:09:00.001+08:00

What would you wish for if you had ONE chance?

Goodbye my almost lover

2011-04-17T14:47:00.000+08:00

FAILED!!!

Failed!!!

2011-04-16T18:10:00.003+08:00

I like you. I don't ask you to reciprocate the feeling. All I ask you is to respect what I feel. Because falling for you was never something I planned.

You're a joke to me

2011-04-16T17:34:00.003+08:00

If I never held you, I would never have a clue how at last I'd find in you, the missing part of me. –John Smith (Pocahontas)

You messed up my life but I don't put you at fault. I'm under your control.

I'm not sure if I'm thinking too much but I hope you know what exactly I feel.

I seek advice and everyone's telling me to hold on. I can give you everything but will you?

I really hope you know what I want to tell you cause I'm not good with words.

You know, when you are facing problem or when you're down, I want to be the one that can help you out.

I just want you to know my presence. That's all I'm asking for.

When the world just tumble down

2011-04-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

For every last bruise you gave me

For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you

I missed the channel

2011-04-14T19:29:00.002+08:00

If someone calls you a bitch, remember that a bitch is a dog, dogs bark, bark is from a tree, tree's is nature, nature is beautiful. So thank them for the compliment.

To be honest, I feel lonely most of the time. I don't know why but I just do. But I'm actually okay with it rather than being with people. I can simply be ME :)

Anyhow, real life in college just started. My timetable is quite packed but I'm alright with it thou. At least I still have time for myself to relax.
Most of my lecturers are nice and fun. So thank god for that if not, I'd be K.O.

Also my new classmates are somewhat fun too! Especially during Finite Mathematics. The class progresses well and yet, everyone still talks a lot.

Felicia and See Teng are in the same class as me for the whole four subjects.

I'm slowly adapting myself to the time with the breaks and my sleeping time.

But so far, I'm really enjoying my college life. Hehehehe! =)

Computing is prinicple

2011-04-12T20:52:00.003+08:00

I am a 24/7 computer user and yet, I don't really know what's the name of the actual components of a computer and what's the function.

This is what I realised when I went for Computing Principles today. Thou it was boring but I find it interesting.

And my gosh, my English standard is sofarking low. Geez, I really need to study!

Recalling

2011-04-09T16:38:00.003+08:00

This whole week passed by really fast but the weekend seem to be long!
I love the smell of the rain but I dislike heavy rain. It scared me.
Last night was the Orientation Night for the March intake students of FIA/FIS. It was nice :)

And before the party, I went to 1U to shop with Pamela. As Pam said, Fridays are dedicated to US :D

Sophistication

2011-04-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

Just two weeks and tomorrow is gonna be our last lecture together :(
Just when I'm getting close to them and now, we have to be in different class next week.
We'll stay in touch, aites? We have facebook to keep us contact :D Hehehe!

When life is a biatch

2011-04-05T23:26:00.001+08:00

LIFE ISN'T FAIR. YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE THIS.

AT TIME LIKE THIS, REALLY, ALL I CAN DO IS TO PRAY HARD AND HOPE YOU'LL GET BETTER SOON.

Can't bare to see you like this.

Like Woahh

2011-04-05T12:53:00.001+08:00

My girlfriend invited me to her house. I found her sister alone in the house, she was unbelievably sexy and whispered in my ear, "I have feelings for you, shall we have sex?", I immediately turned around and walked to the front door to go to my car. I found my girlfriend standing there, she hugged me and said: "You've won my trust"....... Moral of the story: always keep your condoms in the car.

Collecting a jar of heart

2011-04-04T00:25:00.003+08:00

Everyday is an adventure. We discover new things everyday. It also depends on how you want your day to be.

So begin your day with a smile and the whole world would be better... NOT!

Show some love and appreciate

2011-04-02T16:59:00.003+08:00

Tuition gathering was great. It was nice to catch up with things and meet up old friends and to see my tuition teachers again.

And also, life in College is somewhat nice. I feel like a total grown up somehow. LOL!

Meeting up friends after class and having lunch with them it's great.

There are a lot of people in HELP :O

Maybe it's true

2011-03-31T00:35:00.002+08:00

What I did mostly today was texting :)

Also, I baked fortune cookies and unfortunately, it didn't turn out like what I wanted but it taste good somehow. HEHEHEHE!

Also, I tried making ice cream too :D

The beginning of a new chapter

2011-03-29T23:59:00.005+08:00

The next chapter of my life begins : College Life.

During the orientation, I wasn't expecting anything but to my surprise, I met my friend, Celine. Pamela, James, Celine and I are finally back together where we started. We met since we back in kindergarten time and we weren't in the same primary school nor secondary school. And now, we are finally in the same college. Small world, huh? =)

So anyhow, during the orientation, I made friend with a girl but I can't quite get her name. LOL! Sorry to say but I have a lil problems with remembering name.

Today was the first class I attended and it was Study Skills. It was a 2 hour class but that 2 hour doesn't seem long for me. The class was suppose to be an Introduction to Study Skills but we spent most of the time knowing each other. Somewhat an ice breaking session. The class ended half an hour later thanks to the gettoknoweachother session.

As for today, I got myself ready pretty early. HEHEHE! Somewhat, I was a lil nervous cause I was alone.

I got my student ID done already. So next up, it's gonna be my scholarship. Let's hope I am able to get the scholarship =)

Smile and the world smile with you

2011-03-27T21:58:00.003+08:00

I think I should blog about life after National Service. And well, so here I am =)
First and foremost, I must say life after NS is somehow great for me. I certainly do miss camp and especially the people there. They are the one I truly miss. How I wish I can turn back time to spend time with them and just do stupid stuff with them. But I'm a person who looks forward to life =)
Anyhow, I didn't thought to start college so soon after finding out about the course I want and when is the intake. I wanted to start during April but my bro gave me a long lecture and changed my mind. So I'm starting college tomorrow =) I'm somehow excited for it but tomorrow is just gonna be the orientation.

I think it's a wise choice to start college soon cause if not, I would be very lifeless doing nonsense and waste my time. I don't wanna work. I don't really like to go out. So starting college on March is a good thing. I enrolled in on Saturday =D

For the passed few weeks, I've been spending a lot of time out. Most of the time was with my mom. I highlighted and cut my hair, went for facial treatment, shopping with her and stuff that girl does.
And also I went out my friends and went back to Rebels. But so far, I only went to Rebels once. LOL!

There a few changes I see in people after I got back from NS. Not sure the changes are good or not.

One thing which is pretty memorable is Super Show 3. Hehehe! I went with Kar Mun and I really had a splendid time there with her. I totally enjoyed the concert compared to last year.

When I go out, specifically to a mall, I'd be noticing bald guys to see whether are they from my camp or not. LOL! And somehow, I saw some of them but never had the chance to say Hi. I went out with a few of my NS friends that day.

Oh yeah, one more thing. About SPM result. My result is quite surprising, honestly. Going back to school gives me good old memories and I really miss high school. Best time of my life is during High School!

Basically that's about it. I just wrote down whatever I can remember. LOL! So, so long people till my next post =)

When words can't describe it

2011-03-14T18:40:00.021+08:00

Yet again, I must say. I'm really lucky to have been chosen to NS. Kem Nilam Ehsan, Bidor.

The place is pretty brand new. It's only been 2 years so all the facilities and the buildings are new. Also the teachers and coaches there are nice.

Frankly speaking, being there have actually made me a better person. I've been challenging myself to face the activities I dislike. I use to have stage fright but after being on stage a few times, I got rid of that feeling.

Also, I've never been this hardworking to do physical activities like going for a jog in the evening. Doing push ups and sit ups. And also stretching. Michelle and I are like the work out freak. We'd be doing all the strength work in the dorm before dinner and we even went for a night jog for a few times.

I've never shed a tear there before besides the temple. They were showing touching videos. All my dorm mates were waiting for me to cry on the last day but I just couldn't. I mean I'm really sad to be leaving them and leaving all those fond memories but I just can't cry.

I've also met people who are really amazing and having to experience to hold a M-16 is not bad.

Though there are times when things didn't go my way and I really wanted to shout out loud but I tried to hold back.

Also, I've minimized my foul language. LOL! And there are definitely dramas staying with 24 girls.

We gossip a lot and we had problems. My dorm mates are really nice but just for certain ones. I can say I'm close to both the malays and chinese in my dorm.

We even had a heart-to-heart session and it turned out to make the situation worst. And there was once the teacher had to come and interrupt us. Grrrr!

But all in all, I really had a great time there. It wasn't as worst as I thought it would be.

Honestly, they should have more intense physical activities. The stuff we do during PT Pagi doesn't help getting people fit.

The world is really small. Some of them knows my friend and some surprisingly, stays really near to me.

The last night at the camp was really awesome. The performance was totally out but I did enjoy myself. The latest time I slept was at 4-ish.

And the scenery there sometimes is breath taking. Especially during the night. All the stars shinning down and when it comes to full moon, OMG-ah! It's really nice sadly we didn't have camera to capture that moment. It was big, round, bright and low! It was really nice.

Long short short long

2011-02-02T23:12:00.003+08:00

This is something I must blog about. LOL!

Yesterday, when I got back home, when I stepped into my room, my room was different. I had new bed! :D
HAHAHAHA! It totally made my day. And so I spent about few hours in my room alone with the laptop and had a long nap.
Later on, my bro woke me up and went over to Subang Jaya to drop something. I finally saw the School of Japanese or something like that. My bro asked me to drive back and so I did. And from Subang Jaya, we went over to Petaling Jaya for awhile. On the way there, I saw rainbow and that totally made my day! The rainbow was really close and it's the biggest I've ever seen :)
Just by seeing the rainbow simply puts a smile on my face.
I like driving, honestly :D

As for today, my bros and I went down to KL area to shop. We first head over to Sg Wang then to Times Square following by Fahrenheit 88 and lastly, Lot 10. Well, the reason why we went shopping is because of ME :D
I have not buy any new year clothes so they accompanied me. I got most of my stuff and I'm quite happy about it. And it's my first time spending so much on clothes. Maybe it's the process of growing up, I suppose. LOL!

Anyhow, Chinese New Year is tomorrow and I'm kinda excited about it but I'm not really feeling the new year mood.
I would like to wish you all people Happy Chinese New Year/ Gong Xi Fa Chai! May the year of Rabbit brings you better health, fortune and prosperity :D

Nowadays, Then and Now.

2011-02-02T00:56:00.003+08:00

I'm back for the semester break from National Service.

And it's only for 8 days. Including today, I have only 7 days left :(

You know what, I actually feel glad that I'm chosen to go for NS. I'm being frank here. That's because I've realised if I'm not chosen, I'd be like a lifeless person spending the day by wasting time, money and etc. But one thing I dislike being chosen is that my bro, James gets to start college earlier than me and does whatever he likes :( Booohooo!

I survived the first half of the camp without having injuries or any sickness. So thank god for that.

I'm just gonna sum up everything by saying that NS is really not that bad. Each activity done there must have a reason behind it. I'm being positive here that's why I am enjoying my days there. LOL!

Being there helped me to improve my BM. Like solemnly! To me, the way I communicate in BM is getting better and more fluent :)

And I even know more about Islam and Hindu stuff.

I can never miss out my dorm mates. They are crazy yet fun and we call ourself, ESTRELLA :D

I gave that name. Hehehehe! There are a total of 25 people in the dorm for the ladies. I'll cherish the moments we shared.

Oh yeah. One weird thing is that they call the lads and gents as Wira and Wirawati. My bro was asking me that when he came to visit me.

My company name is Alpha and our group is called Espada. I'm not quite sure what's the difference between calling Alpha and Espada. But anyway, what I wanna emphasize is that everyone in Alpha is very high spirited and very together. All our performances are the best, I must say. Alpha totally rocked and ruled the performances during both KKJ and PPBS. We even won during a talk about Indah Water.

Every Saturday, there will be talk or lecture and that occupied our free time =.=

There is also Buddhist class. Twice a week and for the buddhist, we go to the so-called temple every Sunday. It made me believe more about Buddhist.

Our daily routine during the weekdays are:
PT Pagi-> Breakfast-> Class-> Break-> Class -> Lunch -> Kawad/Class/ (something relating to physical activity)-> Tea time -> Riadah -> Dinner -> Rest/Class -> Supper -> Roll Call -> Sleep.

What I dislike most is the Roll Call. The cikgu would be talking crap and everyone have to bare with it.

PT Pagi is alright but it's getting a lil boring since the whole routine is the same. But one thing that is most memorable was that I gave the command. Cause being the one commanding isn't easy and 400 over pairs of eyes would be staring at you and listening to your voice. I did some mistake but I weren't worried and nervous at all. That's something I can totally remember for my life :)

& most of the time during PT Pagi, I'd be the one cheering. Hehehehe!

Yesterday, before the Chinese left for CNY, we did an activity which is called Kembara Halangan. It's something like an obstacle race. I'm proud and glad that I passed everything. Before starting the whole thing, I thought I'd get wet but end up, I didn't get wet at all and succeeded in all the activity.

Throughout the whole activity, Alpha had the best teamwork, I must say. Everyone's cheering for each other and that's something important and to be cherished.

During the theory classes, there are certain session which was really boring. And the class was character building. So yes, indeed it was boring but I tried to pay attention to the teacher so I won't be sleepy. 80% in the class, I wasn't sleepy at all.

Every Sunday, before leaving to the temple, parents can come pay a visit to their child. And my parents came 3 times. I really appreciate them coming down. Travelling for an hour plus to visit me. How nice right? Throughout that 4 weeks, I did have homesick but I didn't shed a tears at all. Maybe that's because I'm used to not seeing my parents for a long time.

I realise that Sailing, Cheerleading and Gymnastic totally helped me throughout the activities. It helped me physically and mentally. Sailing helped me to be more independence and able to face challenges. Cheerleading, it helped me to be more confident and overcome stage frights. Gymnastic helped me to be physically fit and flexible :)
So maybe that's why I am able to adapt myself well there. Cause I started sailing quite young and traveled around Malaysia without my parents.

I'm hoping for better activities when I go back. Like more adventurous activities :)

Recap for year 2010

2010-12-27T02:17:00.007+08:00

2010 has been a tough journey but yet I've totally have fun throughout the whole year. It doesn't matter what I've gone through but it's the good memories that makes me happy and kept me moving on. That's what really matters, I guess.
So, definitely there's been full of ups and downs that I've gone through but it won't be as tough when I start college and working life. I've been exposed to how working life is but not college life. I am really anticipating for it but I'll see what comes around.
Besides facing SPM which ended last week was the best damn thing ever.

So let's do a lil recap on the year 2010 which was really fun.

What I really like about this year was:

I got to do an advertisement for an isotonic drink called 9 Spot. Not sure if you guys ever heard of it. LOL!

And also, I didn't know I would be involve again in sailing when I said I stopped because I wanted to protect my skin from getting burnt.

So for sailing, I went for SUKMA and MSSM cause I thought that would help me to get scholarship :)

I got 5th overall for SUKMA sailing International 420 which I only trained for 3 times before going for SUKMA.

Next, MSSM. I got 3rd for sponsor race which was a good accomplishment for me cause I have never trained sailing 4.7. I went for a small competition in Putrajaya just for training. And went to Kuantan for MSSM. I got 5th overall, AGAIN! Hahahaha!

My life would be nothing if I didn't join cheerleading. It's another big accomplishment for me this year.

First of all with Rebels :D I got 1 gold and 1 silver. Gold for co-ed routine and silver for all girl stunt group. I was the choreographer for my dance group and we got 4th. So I was pretty happy about it cause the dance totally made my life like MOFO.

Preparing for the competition wasn't really easy. Sacrifice, injuries and misunderstanding. That is what we've gone through. But it all come out well. I had several injuries during the practice and I didn't have much time to spend on my studies as the training is usually at night.

Moving on, in school. Sports day was well, awesome! Xavier's cheerleading got CHAMPION and it was awesome cause it's the last time I'd be cheering in school. I was totally busy when I said I'd enter Xavier Sports Day team. LOL! I had to cope up really fast with the routines cause I had to teach my primary kids the routine too. So it was like both Teaching and Learning at the same time.

My friend asked me if I want to coach the primary school girls and I accepted because they'd be paying me 300 but I got 500 instead :)

It was an amazing experience for me for teaching little kids which I didn't ever dream off. It wasn't easy teaching kids from the age 8-12. But I totally had fun teaching them despite of all the scolding and tolerance I did.

And that time, I was like S%&# cause I didn't really have time to study and my time was so limited. The routine back then was like school->stayback(coach and learn)->tuition->choreograph.

It wasn't easy I tell you. I had to learn Xavier's routine. I had to choreograph for my Yellow House primary kids and I had to choreograph for my dance routine for C3. I also had to learn the Group routine for C3. So at that time, I really had no time to study but thanks to my friends, I was able to cope up with my studies. Also through that, I didn't know I could manage to do so many things at once.

It was really a relief when everything relating to cheerleading was done. I stopped cheerleading after the Sorak Metro competition.

My dance group routine.

All-Girl Stunt Group (I'm the main base)

I didn't know I'd get back into gymrama as well. Pn L asked me if I can join and I didn't hesitate to say No when knowing trials was super near. The training got harder cause at that time, there wasn't enough people and the competition is near. So I did try my best to learn everything and I got gold for that :)

So far, it's all been my sports. How could I made it this way without having my friends and family for the supports they gave me.

I'm really lucky to have met those amazing people throughout my whole journey for 2010. It was indeed an unforgettable moment for me.

FAMESY+Aileen+Ee Va+ YC+ PZ. They never fail to make me laugh every time when we are together. Best time is during recess and in class :)

We'd be the loudest and craziest people, I must say.

Besides that, I was in the Prefectorial Board 09/10. The duties were actually hard when I first did it myself but after awhile, I got the hang of it.

I must say, this batch of prefects are FUNNY, HARD WORKING, AND DEDICATED. Each and everyone of them played a great role in school especially Shirley. HEHEHEH!

All the events were all a success thanks to every single one of them. Thumbs up for the prefects, ya'll.

The student-teacher relationship actually got better. I mean I used to be like super shy when I'm talking to the teachers but after awhile, I'm not shy at all and get to communicate with them better. I even text the teachers :D

I've actually made quite a lot of achievement far beyond my expectation.

I was actually in a TV commercial for some isotonic drinks.

P.S. I'm the one in green :)

Around May, before the shooting, CBN and SJI combined to have the IU Day in St John.

It was a blast actually. How we actually got through so many hassle to get everything fix and done.

Well, I'm not an interactor but I helped contribute by doing a performance for them. Dancing is irresistible so I decided to help them out :)

I really wanna show my gratitude to my parents for always supporting me on what I'm doing. They are willing to spend time to fetch me here and there and give me money to carry out my activities.

Someday, in the near future, I'd love to bring them to go for a vacation to somewhere they'll love. I'll find out where they'll like to go. Heheheh!

My classmates are all really nice even though we have the MCA gang in one corner. HAHAHA!

I think I'm gonna stop here for now. I've been taking my own sweet time writing this. I'll try to carry on writing when I've the time.

Son Yeon Jae

2010-11-27T12:24:00.003+08:00

Son Yeon Jae is definitely my bias right now for rhythmic gymnastics. That was because I've watched her on TV yesterday. ASEAN GAMES, BRONZE MEDALIST FOR ALL-ROUND. & Hack. She is only 16 years of age.

She is pretty tall. 162 cm and weighing at 38 kg only! OHMYGAHHH!

Alma Mater

2010-11-17T11:56:00.003+08:00

My brother told me this yesterday since he said it's really meaningful. Someone told him this.

"Many school have graduation day or whatsoever you call that. But the reason why St John doesn't have one it's because you will never be graduated as a Johanian". (not exactly what he said but similar )

I really find it meaningful. I guess that's why CBN doesn't have one too. So to those CBN-ers out there, you know now why CBN doesn't have a graduation day.

Therefore, Once a CBN-er, Always a CBN-er! And CBN! The Alma mater which I will never forget. The best 5 years of my schooling life. Because, if my parents did not put me in CBN, I wouldn't know how would my high school life be.

I never regretted entering CBN! CBN is trully the best :)

I should really thank my parents for putting me in CBN when I was nearly transferred to Catholic. LOL!

Cross and Change

2010-11-13T12:45:00.005+08:00

It's sad to say that this is my last day of school. It's definitely a sad thing. To those who are still schooling, you better appreciate your schooling life. It's the best memory you'll ever treasure in your whole life time.

I'M GONNA MISS EVERYONE. TEACHERS AND THE SCHOOL TOO!

Now I know why all the seniors kept telling us "You'll miss your school after you leave".

How I wish I could turn back time.

I would like to sincerely apologise if I have offended or did something wrong to you.

CLASS OF 2010 IS TRULY THE BEST! Even the teachers agreed.

The discipline teacher even mentioned that this year's batch is by far the best batch.

So hooray and good job to the Fifth formers :)

I told Michelle that I always have this quote for myself.

THOUGH SPM ENDS, BUT IT'S A BEGINNING TO MANY OTHER THINGS.

In 10 more days, SPM begins. I'm not sure to be happy or sad since SPM is bloody near. I'm still sitting here blogging. LOL!

How a waste of time =.=

I wish all the SPM candidates Good Luck and spend your time wisely at this critical moment now. ALL THE BEST!

2010-10-30T16:42:00.002+08:00

I think I'm going crazy just by thinking that I'm leaving school in well, less than a month time now.

I'm thankful that my parents have actually got me into CBN.

When I first heard that CBN is an all girls school, I was like WTH?! But right now, I have no regrets to be in that school, like SOLEMNLY!

Many memories have made in CBN since the year 1898. And the CBN-er spirits lives on forever!

CBN is one of a kind school that you can rarely see. With the caring teachers who are always there ( despite of how hard to find the teachers ) and all the students.

I still remember the first day I step into CBN. It was on the 19th of January 2006 and that was with Hanna and Ee Lynn!

Why am I blogging about this? That's cause Everybody's Day ended. The last event for 2010 and it was DAYUM! :)

Although it was raining early in the morning that make everyone feel dull. It was great!

Today would be my last day for taking pictures for the school. I'm gonna miss my photographers!

OMG! I feel like crying thinking about living CBN.

Once a CBN-er, always a CBN-er!

2010-10-29T13:47:00.002+08:00

I'm back again! :)

I'm gonna miss high school!

I can't believe that there is only gonna be 10 days (or less) to be in school.

I'll surely miss the school and the teachers.

As they say, high school is the best memory ever in your life so treasure it.

I am glad that I fully utilise my time in school with activities. Heheheh!

I am thankful that I met my crazy friends and we call ourselves FAMESY! :)

It doesn't make sense but it's a lot to us. Friends since form 1 and still counting, aites?

I hope we'll all be together again after school. Like having some hang outs and stuffs.

Since the schooling days are so little now, SPM is frigging near.

Exam fever is sure kicking in. But how can I not live with my K-pop? LOL!

GOOD LUCK TO ALL SPM CANDIDATES! USE YOUR TIME WISELY! :)

Faggot

2010-10-21T20:34:00.004+08:00

Yes! THIS WILL BE THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME I'M GONNA WALK ALONE AND SWEAR SO MUCH IN MY WHOLE LIFE. I SWEAR SO MUCH JUST IN WELL, ABOUT 20 MINUTES!

ARGH! I MIGHT SEEM TO BE SPOILT BUT I, MYSELF DISLIKE WAITING!

WAITING HAVE NEVER APPEARED IN MY DICTIONARY BEFORE. THEREFORE, I HATE WAITING!

FUG IT! IT'S BLOODY SCARY TO WALK ALONE DURING THE NIGHT. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE AREAS THAT ARE ALONG THE DARK ROAD.

I'M GLAD THAT I MADE IT BACK HOME ALIVE! MY PARENTS SHOULD BE THANKFUL FOR THAT.

GEEZ MAN!

I WAS AT MIDST WHETHER TO WALK HOME ALONE OR TO WAIT FOR LIKE ANOTHER HOUR, PERHAPS LONGER. BUT I MADE MY MIND TO WALK HOME ALONE!

AGAIN, I'M NEVER GONNA WALK ALONE DURING THE NIGHT.

PS: HAVE YOU NOTICE THAT I'M USING ALL CAPITAL LETTERS? THIS IS WHEN I'M ANGRY!

Time to stop

2010-10-16T16:10:00.004+08:00

So the clock is ticking & there is no time to lose now.

Exam fever is definitely kicking in after I got few of my results back. What I really wanna emphasize is that there is only 37 days left to SPM.

I wouldn't be studying for the 37 days completely but I hope I can. LOL!

My dad is lecturing about what would happen if we don't get good results and etc.

I'm pretty worried right now. I got back few of my trial marks and it's not that satisfying.

Currently, I don't have single A+! DAMN IT! I got 1 A, 2 A-, and 2 B+. Thought I could have done better.

Certain subjects like Accounts, I'm pretty satisfied.

The teacher told the class that this is the first year she saw a good results. Only one person who failed in my class and the marks are pretty close to a PASS.

I heard that my friend, she is from the science class, she takes account paper. And for this trial. She got 40/40 for her paper 1 and 77/80 for her paper 2. How amazing she is.

Geez. Hope I could get that mark. And my parents would definitely love me. AHAHAHA!

Adam Lambert Glam Nation Tour

2010-10-15T16:20:00.003+08:00

One of the biggest topic in town is that Adam Lambert to perform here (Adam Lambert Glam Nation Tour Live in Malaysia 2010) in Kuala Lumpur at Putra Indoor Stadium Bukit Jalil on the 14th of October 2010, jointly organized by Marctensia and Sony Music & presented by DiGi.

I was totally into him when he sang Whole lotta love by Led Zeppelin. He totally rocked that song with his Oh So Amazing Awesome Vocal. Adam got a standing ovation after that performance by Simon. LOL!

Anyway, the concert, man. It's worth going. His vocal is awesome. His make up is awesome! LOL! Love his eyes!

I went there with Kar Mun and Sue Jen (=

Had loads of fun with them and during the concert.

Just a moral value

2010-10-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE IN THE WORLD,
IF YOU HAVE DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING DEEP FROM YOUR HEART YOU CAN DO IT.

A Great Story........

This is a great mail on ATTITUDE & its importance... Check it out!!

1. An old man lived alone in a village. He wanted to spade his potato garden, but it was very hard work. His only son, who would have helped him,was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and mentioned hissituation: Dear Son, I am feeling pretty bad because it looks like I won'tbe able to plant my potato garden this year.. I hate to miss doing the garden, because yourmother always loved planting time. I'm just getting too old to be digging upa garden plot. If you were here, all my troubles would be over. I know you would dig the plot for me, if you weren't in prison. Love,Dad 2. Shortly the old man received this telegram: "For Heaven's sake, Dad,don't dig up the garden!! That's where I buried the GUNS!!"

3. At 4 a.m the next morning, a dozen FBI agents and local police officers showed up anddug up the entire garden without finding any guns. Confused, the old manwrote another note to his son telling him what happened, and asked him whatto do next.

4. His son's reply was: "Go ahead and plant your potatoes, Dad.. It's the bestI could do for you from here.

Dear, dogs

2010-10-01T21:32:00.006+08:00

After watching this show, Marley and Me again on Star Movie makes me think about my dogs.
About how I never treat them well and never really spend time with them.
I currently have 4 dogs at home. And these 4 dogs are just great! They are my best friend when I'm at home because they spend time with me while I'm watching tv in the living room. LOL! That's kinda lame but seriously, they brought me laughter and makes me giggle when they lick me.
As they say, Dogs are mans best friend. I totally agree to that statement cause they just spend time with you and be with you.
And never complains like human does with their non-stop talking mouth. When dogs are happy, they wiggle their tail (=
So as for now, I will take care of my dogs better than before.

One better day

2010-09-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

Just this morning, I was watching this movie on HBO.

I actually teared up watching this show.

It's not that touching but truthfully, it hurts to be in her position. It's a good movie. Go watch it if it's still on on HBO. It's worth watching. Though this show is pretty long ago. It came out on 1996. See. How long that was?

I'm going back to school tomorrow :( It's for the HOD meeting. Just a few of us involve.

& I have tuition tomorrow too. Not sure if I'm going for tuition or the meeting. LOL!

I've been actually studying a little. Thank god for that. Cause I never thought I would have study.

Give me a lil of sunshine

2010-09-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

So here's a lil of something about the holiday.

PLAIN BORING AND THE WORST HOLIDAY EVER IN MY WHOLE 17 YEARS OF LIFE!

It wouldn't be that boring if I am not going to face SPM this year.

Since the two week holiday is before the SPM trial, so, I gotta study.

I didn't study much as I have planned but oh well, it's the holiday right? I should be out hanging somewhere and distress myself.

Mom is not letting me out so screw my holiday :(

At least I spend my holiday getting all hyped up about Adam Lambert's concert and also KPop is my current entertainment. YOUTUBE rocks! Youtube is the source of Korean Entertainment for me. WoooHooo!

Tuition is also occupying my time.

I think I won't be updating much for now on.

53rd Merdeka Celebration

2010-08-31T14:39:00.006+08:00

It's that time of the year again! Another celebration of Malaysia's Independence Day.
I can say that I'm utterly proud to be a Malaysia. LOL! There are really a lot of varieties of various things. Colours, Culture, Food and everything you can name!
Anyway, last week Friday, my school celebrated the Independence Day in school.
I really had fun with well, everyone I met in school that day. They eventually made my day great! :D
We were asked to wear traditional clothes to school so it made our school very colourful that day.
I'm thankful I'm the photographer cause I don't have to sit down in the hall for few hours listening to the long speech :D
I spent most of the time in 5K with Michelle and Anastasia after the celebration and snapped a lot of pictures (:

I wore my mom's cheongsam :D

I like my hair that day (:

Meet Michelle Wong! Love her loads! A crazy funny KPop freak girl :D

And Anastasia Chong! Babe, Love you loads too! Trustworthy friend and loads more :D

The 3 of us <3

And Carven! :D

The reunite of the 3K-ians :D

Super Junior fans (:

2010-08-20T19:35:00.001+08:00

I favour this dance :D

2010-08-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

I wish someone would do something like this just for me. But oh well, fantasizing again is my major activity currently :D

I never wanted too but I just have too

2010-08-18T16:33:00.003+08:00

You messed up with the wrong person! I'll make your life as miserable as you've never imagine. I can be as cold as ice and I can play nice if you do too! You really gotta mind your own business like WTF! No one actually likes you. You are finding your own trouble, you wicked person!

I wanted it to be true so badly

2010-08-15T20:13:00.004+08:00

About the weekends, ya'll :)
I finally went back to cheer practice like after a frigging long time. But there is a reason behind it on why I went training. LOL!
I didn't really enjoy the training as I thought I should be but neways, I stayed over at Sue Jen's place because we needed to create some steps. A 3 eight counts to be specific.
I finally saw her lil luffy which is super cute. A TOY POODLE! It's still a puppy.
We didn't exactly create steps instead, we used back our old steps from C3 (: and the steps I made fits the song so we didn't create steps :)
So the next day, Saturday. After our breakfast, we came back to my house to get my stuff and get ready.
Oh yeah. At a short notice, we were told that we are wearing our cheer outfit to perform. Long story short, we have no jeans to perform. Kim Swee saved our life cause we got the outfit.
So to the performance. It was the Tongue in Chic X Levi's Fit Festival.

A total of 50 cheerleaders from different groups performed a very impromptu performance including Sue Jen and I :)
We will receive Levi's jeans next week. YAY!
So after the performance, I had dinner with my relatives to welcome my relatives who came down from China.
And today, a 10 hour session of BM seminar at University of Malaya was somewhat boring, fun, tiring and helpful.
I was pretty surprise that there were a lot of CBN-ers who went. And quite a lot of my classmates went too.
I've actually gained a lot of things from that 10 hours. The 10 hours includes breaks. HAHAHA!
And today, I had tasted GCB for the first time and yes, no doubt that it is tasty. It was a treat by my brother.
I'm currently reading a book called Shiver. It's somewhat like Twillight. About werewolves. I kinda like it and I hope I can finish it asap so I can really study (:
SPM can be count by weeks now. And that's nerve wrecking. Not only SPM is nearing but gosh. TRIAL! TRIAL IS NEARER!

A lil laughter makes my happy

2010-08-09T15:07:00.013+08:00

I came back from Kuantan, Pahang yesterday and I am back to school now. LOL! I have a release letter from MSSWP stating that I won't be in school from 1st-10th of August. But it's not 10th of August yet and I'm in school. How hardworking am I right? HAHAHA!

Anyway, I am pretty happy and I actually enjoyed this trip though I have a lil of discomfort due to certain things.

1st of August, I left to Putrajaya at about 8 something in the morning. I thought we would leave to Pahang straight away but I came back home to shower after carrying all the boats onto the lorry.

I practically slept during the whole journey to Kuantan. LOL!

My team, Wilayah was suppose to stay in an Asrama school but thanks to me, who won 3rd place for Sponsor race made my Cikgu changed his mind.

We then stayed in a hotel :D

Throughout this whole MSSM, I've learned to appreciate things that I have and act like a senior.

Also, I have made a surprise for myself because I did not expect to win anything.

So below are some of the pictures I took for the whole MSSM trip.

My friends and I were jobless, so we decided to buried someone in the sand. We did that a few times to different people and we learnt to work together. SO CALLED! Hahaha!

& I had 3 days of rest out of the 6 days of sailing. So I spent time at the beach studying, fooling around and others :D

Some of them who are pretty jobless went fishing instead of doing other things.

And here are two pictures of the Wilayah Persekutuan sailors (:

This what I got back from MSSM

My parents came down just to pick me up because I asked them too. How grateful am I to have parents like them :D

My dad have actually quite a lot of projects everywhere around Malaysia. From north to south to west to east. He have a certain project there as an engineer.

Below are pictures of the Hyatt Regency Hotel, Kuantan. A five star hotel.

A dream that I always want it to come true

2010-07-31T15:49:00.003+08:00

End of July and the beginning of August! Gosh! Why must time pass by so fast?
It's gonna be August by tomorrow. Meaning, SPM is getting nearer and nearer. Nerve wrecking, ey?
So anyhow, I've gotten few of my results back and is not very satisfying. Certain of definitely. I thought I could have gotten much better result but, it didn't. I really gotta stuff a lot of stuff into my brain in this few months before SPM.
Few of my subject teachers weren't very pleased with the marks in my class cause it's nearer to SPM.
We really need to be more focused on our studies.
Just yesterday one of the subject teacher really made the whole class all startled and we were all very tensed up with what she was doing.
Besides that, yesterday, there was a fire drill. Prolly about 2 or a day before yesterday, I was asking Ru Yi, Carven and Joey why isn't there any fire drill this year. LOL!
I'm gonna skip a week and 3 days of school. There are both good news and bad news. Good news is that, I won't have to go for the school replacement on Saturday and the Parent Teacher Interview on the 10th.

The improvement that should be praised

2010-07-24T19:03:00.005+08:00

I'm pretty happy about my achievements through this half years time. LIKE SOLEMNLY :)

First off being a cheerleader blows my mind off. Dancing like there is no tomorrow. Cheering like the whole world can't listen.

A prefect. Ahhh. The wonders. Being a CBN prefect really have a big impact on me. Being more responsible and more errm, strict at times. Also being more of a teachers pet. HAHAH. That's how school life should be.

A base! Despite of all the injuries and not liking the decision is actually fun. Like people could see how strong you are and how passionate you are for cheerleading. And that, I LIKE :)

Being back a sailor again and sailing International 420 is such grateful. Sailing is a sport like no other. You can't depend on coach but yourself. It's like man vs the nature. You people should go youtube what is sailing for real. LOL!

and to the point when the word "TOLERATE" comes and "TEAMWORK".

A choreographer. Pretty much a pain in the arse but it's all worth while. Got 4th place from what I expected :D

All-girl stunt group. Amazing strong people :) Worth the injuries for getting 2nd placing.

Through thick and thins, fun and sad. They are what I call a caring-fun group people. REBELS!

PREFECTORIAL BOARD 2009/2010. Different characters and we actually pulled everything together by keeping the school discipline level tip top and everything else a school prefect does.

Photography section. I am thankful that I am working with these amazing people. (Catherine is missing ) Being a HOD with these people made everything easy.

Could you see what's right in front of you?

2010-07-24T18:20:00.002+08:00

The truth is we're both frauds. Your ancestors never sent me, they don't even like me. But you risked your life to help people you love. I risked your life to help myself. At least you had good intentions.
[Cri-Kee chirps sadly at Mushu]

How could we possibly not like Mushu from Mulan? LOL! So that's just for the fun.

So a Saturday morning. Woke up pretty much at the exact time I put my alarm on last night. 9.30 AM! and my phone didn't ring. PFFT!

Had breakfast at a restaurant near my dad's office. Oh yeah. My dad is at Istanbul, Turkey! LOL!

So as I was having my breakfast, errm, I saw someone who I was least expecting to see. It's someone and I shall not mention it here.

I went over to the MBS's Family Day with Kar Mun.

Well, it was alright. There were a lot of food stalls compared to games and some others.

I had fun talking to Kar Mun. HAHAHA!

Saw few CBN-ers there.

Simpsons rule my sock

2010-07-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

Simpsons. Ah, such wonderful creation. It's some what like God's creation but Matt Groening. He is the GOD! The scripts and the whole movie is so ridiculously funny.
Simpsons that is created in 1987, on the tracy ulman show, and 1990 on The Simpsons is greatly living in everyone life.

When I held that gun in my hand, I felt a surge of power…like God must feel when he’s holding a gun.

Fame was like a drug. But what was even more like a drug were the drugs.

Books are useless! I only ever read one book, “To Kill A Mockingbird,” and it gave me absolutely no insight on how to kill mockingbirds! Sure it taught me not to judge a man by the color of his skin…but what good does *that* do me?

How is education supposed to make me feel smarter? Besides, every time I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out of my brain. Remember when I took that home winemaking course, and I forgot how to drive?

Operator! Give me the number for 911!

What do we need a psychiatrist for? We know our kid is nuts.

You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is: never try

In the desert, you a are the only oasis I see

2010-07-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

930528xxxxxx
Such lucky number I tell you. I’ve got chosen for PLKN Siri 8/ 2011. How lucky ey? I told my dad to buy this number for the lottery since I’m so “LUCKY”.
Honestly, I don’t know what should I be feeling since I got the “TAHNIAH” message which so much more like a condolence (via Esther). I did teared up a lil. As in my eyes were watery but no drippings. HAHAHA! Soon or later, I’ll forget about PLKN and the only thing in mind would be SPM! But it’s so much for the FREEDOM-AFTER-SPM since I got chosen. PFFT!
I MISS CHEERLEADING!
I MISS REBELS!
My mom wouldn’t allow me to go for cheer cause of SPM. and that’s one of the promise I told my parents. I told them I would stop cheer and resume back after SPM is over but it’s just so hard and difficult for me not to think about cheerleading.

I’m so lucky that I’m in my current class 5A! Class of 2010. Though we are not like real close towards each other in class ( I’m talking about majority in class ) but my friends, Aileen, Ee Lynn, Pei Sze, Yee Chin and Yvonne totally made my day in school worthwhile especially Aileen. We would actually talk something about the teachers for each subjects! LOL!

2010-07-15T17:19:00.001+08:00

ARGH!

A little of something, a little recap for the week

2010-07-09T08:49:00.003+08:00

It's 9 in the morning now and it's a Friday morning. You should be guessing why am I not in school or perhaps, why am I online?

Well, the reason is, I'm going for my sailing regatta later about 10 something at Putrajaya. No high hopes on winning for this regatta cause it was a superb random for me entering this competition.

My cikgu called me on Wednesday and told me I'm going for the regatta. What's the best thing? I haven not sailed that boat before nor touch the boat and I know nothing about the boat! HAHAHA! Eventually, I know a lil of the boat.

Anyway, for the whole week in school it was pretty fun. The main event for the week was the CAREER WEEK.

Honestly, I'm in dilemma. I have no idea what should I study. There are so many course that I'm interested in but I wanna study something that gives me a bright future and earn $$ :)

BUT! SPM is not over yet so I'm just gonna focus on SPM.

Prefects! The juniors are working with the seniors which is my board. My junior is well, okay. No big fuss about her. HAHAHA!

Tuition is actually tiring but sort off fun with my tuition friends. My schedule for tuition is not that pack but the time. ARGH!

Tuesday-5.30 till 8.30

Thursday- 5.30 till 8.30

Friday- 5 till 6

I have no idea how my bro can actually stand spending so much time in Kasturi. He reach home about 7 something sometimes. LOL!

The greetings that welcomes you

2010-07-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

How dare you open a Space Ranger’s helmet on an uncharted planet? My eyeballs could have been sucked out of their sockets! -Buzz

So I shall begin my post with a simple yet different language of a simple HELLO :)

& to heat things up just a lil, look at the picture below. Don't you think it's adorable?
Well, maybe to those K-Pop freaks would think so (:

03072010
Another main event of the school ended which is the Hari Anugerah Cemerlang 2010.
It was such a phenomenal event with everything going smoothly for me. Cause the people who are under me, listens to me and does what I asked and I had my job done fast and everything was such ... I can't even describe it.
One thing for sure after today's event is that I'm gonna miss my fellow prefects.
Prefectorial Board 2009/2010.
Credits to Pei Jean, Catherine and Yaeber for being a good photographer. Especially Yaeber! She didn't have anything for that event and she actually came for a duty. Such dedicated photographer she is. I'm grateful for that :)
When I was otw to school today, I knew that after the event, the prefects would go to McD for lunch so I prepared myself and what I thought became reality. HAHAHA!
Such great time having a chat with them and telling all the stuff.
Girl talk takes up a lot of time. We were there for about an hour plus and we didn't realize the time passed by so fast.
Here is a shot I took this morning (:

I'm grateful for my photography section people especially Intan, Catherine, Pei Jean and Yaeber! Without them, I would probably be in an abnormal state of mind. LOL!
Thank you! Terima Kasih! Kamsahamida!

You are a child's play-thing!

2010-06-30T16:21:00.002+08:00

You kept making me wonder and giving me false hope. What did I do to deserve that? I think I could be treated much better. All you do is making me fantasize and it's a heart aching feel for me.

So gym started. And it's a pain in the ass cause I, myself don't favour gymrama very much unlike cheerleading. Cheerleading is a total different case for me.
I <3>
I live for cheerleading! (:
Last week Wednesday was the first training for the MSSMKL competition. And that was my first time learning the routine and getting know how to use the ROPE! I don't like rope very much. PFFT!
After that one training, I started the training this week, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. So in total, I only had 4 training session.
And guess what? The competition is tomorrow for GOD SAKE! Geez! The coach was saying that the judges can identify who are not the gymnast. And I very much agree with her cause hack! I am no gymnast. I've got no basic. But oh well, I'll give it my all for tomorrow's competition. Hope I won't screw up the whole routine cause I'm competing in group exercise. *nerve wrecking moment*
And I have yet to go buy leggings, scrunchy and clips for tomorrow.

You are the rainbow after the rain

2010-06-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

My Hyukkie is just so talented. Well, the song is for Kangin Oppa because he is leaving for the army.

EunHae composed this song for him :)

Operator! Give me the number for 911

2010-06-28T20:25:00.005+08:00

Beast is the B2ST!
On the 26th of June 2010, they had a showcase in Malaysia.
SHOCK OF THE NEW ERA!
& I was lucky enough. Kar Mun had an extra ticket and she knew I wanna go so she gave it to me :) It was worth the half price instead of paying RM120. But RM120 includes, TICKET ENTRANCE, T-SHIRT and ALBUM!
It's worth paying for the RM120 if you ask me. I wanted to buy the album but sad case, it's sold out.
I gave up hoping that I can go see B2ST but YIPPPIE!
I saw them in person! They were dancing, singing and smiling! Hahaha.
AWESOME SHOWCASE despite of all the waiting and unorganized planning by UNI@%^& MU%^#.
And that showcase, there is autograph session. I got the signatures and they were signing it in front of me.
I'm loving YONG JUN HYEONG aka Poppin Dragon. His dancing is madness I tell ya. MADNESS!

THANK YOU KAR MUN!

2010-06-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

It's not like you've won a grammy award so please keep it to yourself!

Love is the beauty of the soul

Greeting 2012 a warm welcome :)

Dance like there's no tomorrow

Fondest memories of December 2011

When it all comes to an end

Honesty

Christmas Eve

Friends

Lady Gaga!

Knock Knock

Share what is on your mind. Don’t think, just do.

Hoping that you walk through that door.

That sparks in you

Put your arms around me

Thank you :)

I never forgot you.

Why why why?

Dear Future

Why why why?

Disney

I'm happy

I like you

River flows in you

Melody of Life.

As what we all know

How to love

Stop and stare!

Life fullstop

Short skirts and mini skirts, what's the difference?

You never knew, right?

: )

Don't let me down

Heart to heart

Make it easy please

Christina Perri - Arms (Official Lyric Video)

You're the butter to my jelly.

Can you smile

Always keep the faith

Heart to heart

True fact about me

Goodbye my almost lover

You're a joke to me

When the world just tumble down

I missed the channel

Computing is prinicple

Recalling

Sophistication

When life is a biatch

Like Woahh

Collecting a jar of heart

Show some love and appreciate

Maybe it's true

The beginning of a new chapter

Smile and the world smile with you

When words can't describe it

Long short short long

Nowadays, Then and Now.

Recap for year 2010

Son Yeon Jae

Alma Mater

Cross and Change

Faggot

Time to stop

Adam Lambert Glam Nation Tour

Just a moral value

Dear, dogs

One better day

Give me a lil of sunshine

53rd Merdeka Celebration

I never wanted too but I just have too

I wanted it to be true so badly

A lil laughter makes my happy

A dream that I always want it to come true

The improvement that should be praised

Could you see what's right in front of you?

Simpsons rule my sock

In the desert, you a are the only oasis I see

A little of something, a little recap for the week

The greetings that welcomes you

How dare you open a Space Ranger’s helmet on an uncharted planet? My eyeballs could have been sucked out of their sockets! -Buzz